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| New Site: Public Speaking for All |
| 05.20.06 (7:27 am) [edit] |
Public Speaking for All
Some of you have asked what I was secretly working on for the past month. Well here's a little part of my personal project. I figured since I love public speaking so much, I might as well dedicate a site specifically for it. And I did! Check out my latest post above! And if you like it, digg it! :)
Been trying out some tips given by Internet experts on driving traffic to blogs and guess what! I successfully raised the number of hits from a miserable 15 to 103 within a couple of hours. Small win - yeah!
Hope you guys enjoy reading the entries as much I write them!
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| Tripp has moved out |
| 08.12.05 (2:34 pm) [edit] |
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Tripp has moved out.
This blog site is dying. Posts are disappearing. People are leaving.
Blogger needs a change of environment.
Enough said.
HTTP://INNERIC.BLOGSPOT.COM
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| What's love? |
| 08.10.05 (5:03 pm) [edit] |
I have been eating at this small Japanese diner for 3 weeks. Almost 4 out of 5 times during lunch. They don't really sell very fancy food. Just the usual bentos, sushi and udon. But I just keep coming back. The lady boss (a korean) never fails to greet her customers the moment they step in and out of the diner. On Fridays, she will wish them a great weekend. After the third time I visited the diner, she remembers my order. No salad dressing. One extra bowl of rice and one cup of water. Even when I had udon, she would still give me an extra bowl of rice (for free)
Just the other day, I brought Dawn to have lunch and the lady gave us a free pot of green tea. And she gave me and Kevin a discount. Ever since, I have been bringing colleagues there for food. Then it dawns upon me the essence of doing a business. Sometimes it is not just about the quality of your product. What really impacts your customers is the experience they have using your product. It's in the experience that determines if your customer is going to come back for more. It's true, when it comes to doing a business, it is all about the customers.
Does the same principle apply in relationships too?
What if loving someone is not about possession?
What if loving someone is not about engagement or marriage?
What if loving someone is not about "Me and You, Forever"?
What if all that matters is the experience of being in love with that special someone?
Then it doesn't matter if you possess him or her.
Engagement and marriage will merely be a formal procedure.
And forever becomes a non-issue.
I want that.
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| China men eat almost everything... |
| 08.07.05 (4:42 pm) [edit] |
An innocent conversation we had at dinner last night.
[b]Neeraj(N):[/b] So I heard that people in China eats almost everything. Tell us what u have eaten?
[b]Eric(E): [/b] (interject) Maybe it would be easier if u tell us what you have [i]not[/i] eaten...
[i](Some laughter)[/i]
[b]Ram(R):[/b] So have u eaten a snake?
[b]Ziliang a.k.a China-man(Z):[/b] Yea
[b]N:[/b] Cow?
[b]Z:[/b] Yea
[b]E:[/b] Deer?
[b]Z:[/b] Yea
[b]N:[/b] Rabbit?
[b]Z:[/b] Yea
[b]R:[/b] Pigeon?
[b]Z:[/b] Yea
[b]E:[/b] Dog?
[b]Z:[/b] Yea
[b]N:[/b] Pussy?
[b]Z:[/b] Yea
Silence...
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| Chill out @ Hard Rock Cafe, Philadelphia |
| 08.05.05 (7:39 pm) [edit] |
To sum it up, here's what I have been up to... 0_o
Here's the coolest BVians ever! We rock BIG time! (Guess who's the b'day boy/gal? No brainer right!)
Posing in front of Hard Rock Cafe
My housemates. We are the E411s! Everything for the price of $11.
And that's me with the infamous Beatles of coz! I really got to put on more weight!!!
Plan A - Eat ALL I can! *Gobble burger* while eyeing on Phebe's chicken - yum yum!
Neeraj (my room mate) trying to be chinese. C'mon!
Revisit the Times Square - really gotta watch the broadway soon. And ...
Visit the one and only COLDSTONE! They should have a franchise here in S'pore! Not only do you get to choose the flavor of ice-cream, you get to choose 2 toppings like marshmallows, cookies, hot fudge, fruits etc, and they will mix it up for you.
By the really cool dudes in Cold Stone.
That should really be part of my daily diet if I want to put on some serious weight here.
We definitely love the ice-cream! One more plz!
Visited this catherdral that was built hundred of years ago. Very serene. Very authentic.
Also went to Ground Zero when the bombing took place - the fateful Sept 11. It could really bring tears when you read about the actual happenings on that day. It was said that the cross was what remains during the aftermath - not sure how true it was.
Ok I am really sleepy... if u want to see more pics, click the links below. U know what, I have yet to take a single pic. My frens are photo fanatics. They diligently bring their cameras everywhere they go and they snap pictures every step of the way. Saves us 10 seconds of time per picture if I don't bring my camera.
A (to stranger): Can you help us take a photo? (smiles sweetly while the rest nod earnestly)
Stranger: Sure!
B (Upon hearing "Sure!"): Here's my camera - can you help me too?
C: And me...
D: Here's mine!
E: Wait a sec, I have one too...
Stranger: Erm, this could take a while..............
A-E and more: Act blur and pose... *CHeeezzzzzz*
Repeat above procedure for every single building. Multiply that by min. 5 cameras. Now you can see why I could save us all quite a lot of time by not bringing my camera.
I was on the phone with mum while Julia snap it. *grin* See you guys soon! More pics coming up I assure you. Meanwhile, chill!
More Hard Rock Cafe pics courtesy of Julia. http://share.shutterfly.com/a...
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| I am feeeeeling really high! |
| 08.03.05 (5:03 pm) [edit] |
I am super high today! Oh boy, head rush!!!
[b]1. Extremely fruitful day at work[/b]
I was actually busy, all the way till 5.30pm. Started to flow with the Americans at my workplace. Learnt to make causal chats with my colleagues and skilfully retrieve vital information or get "helps" from them. Geneva, a manager from QA Dept is my angel at work. She brought me around meeting "key" people that would be able to assist me in my projects and just 15 mins, I got all that I need. Key people to get input from, nuggets of info to manuvere my way around, special grants to allow me access to some of the systems and even a possibility for me to move my desk to another side of the company. That's efficiency baby!
[b]2. Visited a Toastmasters (TM) Club this evening[/b]
Definitely an act of courage for me. Imagine an Asian Chinese visiting a club he doesn't know of, interacting with a group of people who are already proficient in speaking (with a cool Amercian accent) and doing it ALL BY MYSELF... But I did. Without getting lost. One brownie point for myself!
And boy, it was definitely an eye opener for me. The club was held in a hotel, 45th floor overlooking the entire Philadelphia City. They are fairly friendly (not as warm as some clubs I visit in S'pore) and I got to meet a nurse, a stand up comedian, an artist, two TV producers and a few IT professionals (whom I am starting to respect ever since I work at StarCite) I would definitely come back again next Wed and probably sign up as a member. I have a wild aspiration. To take part in the Evaluation and Speech Contest. And the fun thing is I will be competing with Americans. Who knows, I might be lucky. But then again it would be a super duper great experience to rub shoulders with some of the top speakers.
[b]3. Met this really talented stand up comedian, his name is Avish.[/b]
This is one of the main motivation for joining the club. He is also a member for an Improv Club in Temple Uni. (think Who's Line is it Anyway?) And I was thinking of joining to brush up my wit and probably have a fighting chance to be a stand up comedian in S'pore. Or probably be one in States. Ooh, the Asian Boy with a Singlish Accent or something like that. Ok, I am dreaming.. but isnt that what I do best. Except I am gonna make this one come true.
[b]4. Have a social life (finally) - kind of, I think[/b]
As I was walking home, I was thrilled coz I am not at home slacking. I am out there making friends, learning & growing. I know it is nothing great. Just a club. But hey it is a start! Hopefully I would get to meet more locals here and start clubbing too. Or stay over at a friend's place or something. That would be so fun! But I got to keep myself in check. I have the tendency to fill up my schedule and life here would be no different from the one I have in S'pore. Bleah!
[b]5. Rented three funny comedies[/b]
Haha. For the kick of it. Monty Python's Flying Circus (keep hearing it in ECI community), Chris Rock Comedy and Deuce Bigalow, Male Gigolo (to prepare me for the part 2 in Europe!)
[b]6. Know this sweet chinese girl, Jasmine[/b]
Finally a chinese not from my NOC gang. *grin* And she majors in IS too - how cool is that!
[b]7. Got a few more recommendations of places to visit this weekend[/b]
A few museums to visit and we would probably be cycling down Kelli Drive too. It's along the river. And I heard it has pretty good sceneries. Will take pics if I am going there this weekend.
[b]8. I am really hungry now and we r going to throw a surprise b'day party for Jaron who stays upstairs. So I would have chocolate hot fudge for supper. Gonna have TWO big slices - yum yum![/b]
[b]9. Outing at Hard Rock Cafe tomorrow evening. Picnic Friday evening. And then weekend. It just gets better![/b]
[b]10. And finally during the impromptu session in TM, I left my audience with a fairly good impression... Nothing fancy but still, good... So proud of myself. :wink: [/b]
[i]"It's not the big things you do that made you an angel... It's the small things you do for people that made you their angel..."[/i]
What a day! *yawns*
:roll:
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| Can we have some efficiency here plsssssssss?? |
| 08.02.05 (10:22 am) [edit] |
Americans may be able to spell the word "efficiency" but they have no idea what it means to be efficient. But then again I may be wrong.
If efficiency means putting me on hold for 20 mins, then they are efficient.
If efficiency means transferring me around the calling centre, first to the phone dept then to the DSL dept then to the billing dept then to God knows where. Yes, they are efficient.
If efficiency means asking me repeatedly for my first name, last name, full address and how they may help me for every god damm transfer, oh boy they are sooooo efficient.
If efficiency means spending one hour on the phone with 6 callers and getting no where in solving my problem, yes, they are FUCKING efficient.
And all I wanted was to change my billing account...
I miss Singapore.
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| From Philly, with Love! |
| 07.31.05 (1:29 pm) [edit] |
A few days ago, I called T-mobile. Wanted to change my billing address. FYI, the calling centre is run by a voice recognition system. So this female bot picked up my phone. Below is our conversation.
Bot: Hi! Welcome to T Mobile, how may I help you?
Me: Fuck you!
Bot: Sure! Let me get you an operator.
Me: Wow!
Time passes real fast over here. It's already 2 wks plus and I would be getting my first paid check in a week's time. Woohoo! Just yesterday we (all 10 of us) went for a day tour in New York and boy, it was definitely an eye opener for all of us. It was huge fun albeit tiring from all the walking. My room mates and myself plan to watch a Broadway (maybe Beauty & the Beast) and a stand up comedy the next time we visit NY. Can't wait...
Some of the highlights - Dim Sum @ NY Chinatown, quick glance of Statue of Liberty (the ferry queue was way too long), Wall Street Tour, Time Square Shopping, Ice cream at Cold Stone, Ground Zero (Sept 11 bombing ground) and New Jersey! All in one day.. so u can imagine how exhausting we were.
Nothing much happen really. We just miss a station and end up in Coney Island (10 miles from Ellis Island where Statue of Liberty stands), got lost again while heading back from New Jersey to Philly at 2am, speeding at 140 MILES per hour...
There's just so much going on right now here in Philly. It's not all exciting everyday. A lot of times it is just mundane and plain boring but we all make the best of it. And even crack some jokes out of the boring situation we r in. I think that is what makes life here fun. Just like today, we woke up like 1pm and wanted to throw some trash in the basement. Took an elevator down and guess what, we were presented with a whole assortment of furniture - low table, dining table, 2 leaning chairs, one kitchen dustbin with kitchen assessories. All FREE! Just last wk, we picked up a shelf and two brand new tables. I wonder what we will have next wk. We need sofa!!!
And then later at 5pm, we went down to the basement to pick up our laundry and we saw some more furniture!!! Our eyes lit up for a second! Then we saw two puzzled guys near the pick up point. Apparently, those were their furniture. We were like "Oh oh... did they just lost some chairs and tables???!!!" And we walked away innocently. We r planning to go down later to see if they left anything behind. I am eyeing on their nice carpets and CD closet! Keke... What a day!
The raging bull in Wall Street! (Check out my frens' pics: http://photos.yahoo.com/neera...)
Here's my room! =)
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| Philly, here I come! Here's the name, ERIC FENG! |
| 07.13.05 (3:09 am) [edit] |
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeow!!! Peeps, I am back! In my temporary apt at Philly! And guess what, it is early morning 7.15am! Man, I am an early bird yeah. Looks like I am up for a great start. Hopefully I keep that up for the next one yr. This place is a huge mess though. Spacious yes, that's why there is MORE space for mess. Seniors have left all their stuff here for sale. Look more like a flea market. TV selling at $25, mattress at $5, dining table with cushioned chairs at $40, rice cooker at $5 etc etc. They even have all the mattresses piling, reminds me of Princess and the Pea. Haha.
I miss u all sooo much k. Esp my family! It would be another 4 months before I see them again. They r planning to visit me in Dec. And Chuan Wei in Dec too! Can't wait sia..... I realise that the most difficult thing to do is to leave your loved ones. And the feeling of missing someone is terribly unbearable. In the 25 hours long flight, I keep thinking of u guys. Read and re-read all the cards and sms-es... This is soo hard!!! And I guess I will not stop missing all of u. Got to get used to this.
But here's some gd stuff to share.
1. I am freeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Not free as in dollars and cents of coz. Keke. LAME! But I am free as in nothing to do. I will just walk around. Looking out of the window, checking the stuff left behind by seniors and retyping my blog coz I keep deleting the entry accidentally. Time is slow here. I have noooo idea what to do after blogging. But I find it realli refreshing.
2. I am staying with 2 gals now. Haha. What an experience right. I heard sooooo much abt gals and now I have two besides my room. This morning when I woke up, I found the toilet lid down and I was reminded of the girls. I am sure more fun stuff will come up in the later days. Just hope that girls will be by default able to do at least the 2 Cs: Cook & Clean!! Keke. *crossed fingers*
So what am I gonna do later. Just some admin stuff like sourcing for a permanent apt for six. We r looking at a three room flat with three bathrooms and a large living room. 4 guys n 2 girls. That's a great combi for an adventure - what say u? And we gotta set up a bank account, apply for social security number, student card etc etc. I am more concerned about the foooood actually haha. Oh and the weather is fine. Just like S'pore temp realli coz it is the summer.
Ok la... I am gonna bum now. Here's some pics for your viewing pleasure. Hehe. *chatting wih my mum on msn now* How cool right! She is still typing... can imagine how she will nag me online. Sweeeet! Laterz!
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| Our final stand against the bad bad world... |
| 07.07.05 (11:25 pm) [edit] |
Hi peeps! Mum went downstairs to get stuff. So I am frrrreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! Coz she made me sat down with her to pack my luggage earlier. U got to realli give her credit for that. She could squeeze so much stuff into one luggage bag. Kudos to u, Mum! She is just like the Doremon, only bigger. Oh and Chuan Wei suggested that I buy his Holy Bicycle instead? Haha. And does it come with the Erotic Secretary??? Private joke between Joan, CW and me.
There's something I want to say here. Gonna be long but it might hit a chord in you (I hope) and probably start you on a track that you will never look back.
The world is getting smaller, my frens. And hence, more competitive as well. Life is getting harder. People r losing their jobs. Businesses are struggling to survive in this economy.
Here's the implications: We better keep up. We gotta continue growing.
And the only way to keep up is to learn. But the traditional means of learning is not good enough. It is not focusing on the critical aspects like your survival, your inter-personal skills, your effectiveness in all areas: self, family, career etc. When you throw a frog into boiling water, they jump out on reflex. But if u throw a frog into cold water and then you start boiling slowly, you gonna get frog stew. We r in a similar situation I feel. People r only suffering the effects, we r not feeling the pain yet...
Are we doomed?
That's why we r having this conversation. There's a new revolution. An art born out of the lab. It has been used in sports performance, the Art of Coaching. What is coaching, some may ask. It's simply effective inter-personal communications between two people that cause results. If every single one of us is able to acquire the basic coaching skills and become effective in what we do, be it as a student, a parent, a teacher, a friend, a boss, a worker, how will it be like for us? What will it be like if everyone is geared towards self development and personal evolution? Throw in an environment that promotes personal growth, what will these people become?
That got a few of us to start thinking. And we decided to do something about it. And it leads to this... Coaching Clubs International. Or CCI in short. A movement that some of us have started recently.
We want to bring this new revolution called coaching down to grassroot level, as a final stand against the harsh world. As a way humans can fight back by becoming effective at who they are and what they can become. We bring in the technology, the coaching programs, the club management system and we teach you how to set up your own clubs where you can start to evolve and grow in whichever area you want to. Be in self, relationships, career, family etc. And the best thing is this: you can choose which focus to take and all at your own pace!
A nurturing environment that empowers u to grow...
Opportunities for you to apply coaching into REAL issues that you are facing now through our hands-on projects and evaluations...
High effectiveness and confidence in handling situations at home or work...
An avenue for you to build business and social networks
And more...
And peeps, that's only the tip of the iceberg of what CCI can do for you! Hee.. And yes, I am all fired up about this movement and u know wat, I want to invite all of you to be part of this. Just leave me a msg at tag n I can direct u to more info. We r holding meetings on Thursdays, twice a month. And guests r invited!!
Talking abt that, I am soo inspired by the people who signed up last wk during our launch. Coz u could see the fire in them as well. The passion & love they have for themselves n the people around them. Kudos to you guys!
Though I would not be physically around, I invite all of u to take a look yourself! :wink: As for me, I will be starting another bushfire in States. Watch out for it~
And here's some pics that we took on the first club meeting we had yesterday. Have fun! More updates to come... Laterz!
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| Shockingly sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeet! |
| 07.06.05 (7:23 am) [edit] |
Phew.... this evening was shockingly sweet. Sweet coz my good buddies came over to chill. Shocking coz they insist on watching Shutter!!! :? Over pizza and lasagne. $#&%&^*&)*)_(+)+|_|_
But being nice and all, I gave in and manage to skip 80% of it behind my pillow and sending Shufang home. Not that I am proud of it. Consequences: 1. I daren't sleep alone (sis sleeping with me) 2. I am having a horrible headache. Lucky, no backache. (if u know what I mean....) Goosebumps!
Did not snap many pics... wun want to see the unseen.
How apt! Our "ghost"
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| Fulfill your Destiny - that's your obligation on Earth! |
| 07.04.05 (9:27 am) [edit] |
Here's a long awaited update...
Most people only become present to things around them when they are about to leave or die. I belong to the first group fortunately or unfortunately (depends on how u look at it). When I got home today, I went to my sis room to tuck her to bed. And then I walk around my house, first to the living room then to the kitchen, then to my room. I did not notice how spacious the house is actually... I am gonna miss my house. I am really lucky coz my house is realli well kept, tks to my dad n mum. And my room... small but cozy. I began to appreciate my privacy. And my fren was kidding that I will no longer be able to wank in my room. Hey! Shush! :roll:
And I hate the feeling of missing people. Gosh... din know this is so hard. I start to understand the importance of physical presence in any relationship. Esp. new ones. And that includes friend-friend kind of relationship too k... I still remember how excited I was when I got the NOC Acceptance Letter. And today as I was reading "The Alchemist" by Paulo Coelho, something hit me.
[i]"When you want something so bad, all the universe conspire to help you achieve it. Your mission on Earth is to fulfill this destiny. That is Man's obligation."[/i]
I guess that's quite true for me. Coz I realli want to go for NOC sooo badly even though the odds are so against me and bingo, I am flying in less than a wk's time. I felt happy all of a sudden coz it brings affirmation that all things are possible by Man's will alone. Yet, what's my true destiny? What is it that I [i]really[/i] want? Which master am I serving? That, I got to seriously contemplate. But the fact is I am leaving so I am gonna enjoy it. It's true u know... Love is not about possession.... Let's just leave it as that. Oh and do listen tot he song I post online "Lonely" by Akon. And no, I am not lonely.. But I love the song - sooooo cute!!!
Oh and I finally got the pics from one of the training I did with Ngee Ann Pri. For your viewing pleasure. Eric @ Work! More to come... :D
Chilling with the kids @ Ngee Ann
Getting into Lesson Proper – Innovation & Enterprise
Dino @ Work – The kids love him!
Ahh.. that was the “Drop the Egg” activity. They are supposed to build a “protection” for the egg such that it survives a three storey drop. Only one group managed to do it. With straws and a parachute made of plastic bag! So smart right!
Angels??? No way! They are devils in disguise!! You don’t get to see the devils in action coz we even have to get our photographer to do devil-control!!!
Facilitators in action!
Candid shot of the kids in action. I mean devils…
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| How I really feel right now... |
| 06.28.05 (6:55 am) [edit] |
This is gonna sound like a "Vent out" entry so pardon me if it sounds sooo... #%^$&^&(*)(_($#%*&.....
(DISCLAIMER: IT REPRESENTS PURELY HOW I FEEL AND NOT THE TRUTH)
Everyone is asking me this "When you free to meet up before you leave?" I feel sooo pressurized coz I really want to meet them yet I dun seem to have any time. My best friends. My close clique of friends. Friends. My bosses etc etc. AND MY FAMILY TOO! And I am just fustrated coz time is running out. Yes, what the F*** am I busy with? One major project on my mind is CCI. I hang on to it coz I say so. Frankly there is no much motivation to do so since I would not be able to see it through. I would only be playing a supporting role. And I would not be reaping its fruits since I would not be around most of the time... Yes, these are the consequences of my decision to leave. Nope, I have no regrets. It is just a fact. My two mentors, Kelvin and Alex asked me to stay. And I know where they are coming from. Yet it is a bit too late to go back on my decision now. Perhaps I fail to see the "longer term" benefits of staying... or I lack the courage to make it...
So yes I am fustrated coz I feel that I am not investing my time on the more important things in my life. My family and friends whom I care about. I feel bad.... I feel that I am not handling it well... And this sucks!
Like today... got back from a two day conference/get-away. Felt really relaxed last two days but when I come back, I am flooded with sms-es and phone calls. Work Work Work!!! And then my mum started nagging.. Asking me if I am sure about taking up the scholarship, would I regret, what time to wake up tomorrow, am i eating home etc etc.. I know she cares a lot about me and she misses me... but I let my fustration machine take over and I wasn't even present to her conversation. And I just go "Okok" "Yeah" "OK la.." etc etc. Fuck! I am letting my machines take over AGAIN...
Then there is EV's stuff that needs to be handled. My partners are waiting. The deed needs to be signed. And guess what, I havent even pack for NOC except that I bought some clothes already (keke) Plus all the meetings with my friends.. And I got movie dvds/vcds that I have not watch...
So much things to do. So little time. Yet I feel that I am wasting time, doing things that are not so important... that people may not appreciate. And I have made two major decisions that now I am doubtful about... Arrgh!!!! Fuck Fuck Fuck!
Waaaaaaaah... Feel SOOOOOOOOO much better already. This is clearing at its best. Think I FEEL too much. Feeling is ineffective. It's inaction. It's activated by machines. Got to act! Got to move! I have one more wk left. And there is this really special person that I will miss sooooooo much!!! :roll:
And here's the fact. When one door closes, the other opens. Your job is to find that door. True that I have made up my mind to walk through two doors. And as I stepped into them, I found a possibility that the other doors might have better prospects. But if I keep thinking that way (whether it is true or not), I would never be able to appreciate the experience I get from walking through the current door. You see... people love to imagine the "what ifs". I do... it is safer. But that's inaction... no point really.
Here's what I am gonna do:
No matter wat, I am going to walk bravely and bear full responsibility of the cause and effects of the decisions that I made. Thanks for reminding me to be grounded. You know who u r... Thanks, really.
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| A quickie for all~ |
| 06.25.05 (8:52 am) [edit] |
Farewell party for our beloved boss, Sarah from SCC (Fish & Co.)
Here's our star!
Something hit me today during Coaching training. But I am too sleepy now to blog. Raincheck k. :wink:
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| No Goodbyes, Just See you all Laterz! |
| 06.04.05 (10:47 am) [edit] |
Peeps, I will be leaving for Hokkaido, Japan in one day's time. What I am present to is the incoming one year stay at States. Compared to that, one week at Japan is nothing... And I will be spending precious time with my family. *grins*
This few days have been a mad rush. Clearing all my work b4 I leave for Japan. 2 Adventure Camps awaiting me after my Japan trip. Project CCI on the run. People to catch up with. NOC incoming... (and I havent even pack)
As of now, I am have 2 pending tasks. Gonna clear them by tomorrow 4pm. And I am planning to shop for a pair of webcams and thumbdrive at Expo. But I will be there alone... Sniff Sniff. It will be a hurried shopping trip I suppose.
Gonna miss a lot of people...
So no goodbyes, just see ya all later!
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| Great Great Great! |
| 06.01.05 (8:35 am) [edit] |
Weeeeeeeee! I am free the whole morning tomorrow! Tat's so amazing... Finally after so long... Hence I can stay up a bit later to play with my cousin. I have let the matter go n we r planning to eat maggi mee later and prob. watch a DVD. Awesome!
And I got back my results. They r not as great la... But I maintain my 2nd upper honors!! And considering that I have been a part time student for one sem, I am freaking happy!
June has started and will be coming to end real soon. And I am rushing to complete several projects. I will have a pit stop break this Sun coz I am chilling in Hokkaido, Japan. I will def. be taking loads of pics. Be sure to look out for them! Ahhhh.... things r getting more n more exciting.
And I just want to say this:
Dad, you r the greatest dad in the whole wide universe. I LOVE U SO SO MUCH!!! And u know what, I told him that in the face. *Hugz*
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| Happy B'day Mummy! |
| 05.28.05 (5:37 am) [edit] |
Today is my mum's b'day!!! Happy B'day Mum! No mum, no me. How abt some time travel yeah? Hehe. Get to see mum being born and then seeing her grow up. And she dating dad.... Just like "Back to the Future"
Big plans are hatching - super duper xcited! Hush hush.
I realize that there is no way I can ever finish doing everything. I shall leave it to tomorrow. The fun thing is I have booked my mum on Tues to bring her shopping. And Thurs to shop and chill with my dearest sis. Hehe. Can't wait. I am NOT going to do any work tonight. Gonna chill and watch "Secret Window" before I go to bed. It is a looooooong day tomorrow. Kewl!
Later!
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| Your focus is your reality |
| 05.26.05 (7:16 pm) [edit] |
Breakthroughs! Breakdowns! Break-ups!
With every breakdown u have, you earn a breakthrough!
Ever since TCC, I have NO MORE breakups coz I was not even in any relationship, keke. =)
Anyway.. I was realli inspired by Chaun Wei and Yixin!! They were telling me abt their experiences after TCC and I was like "Wooooooooow!!! Scary!!!" I will leave it to them to share la. Now I know why TCC has the power to drive training companies out of biz. Who needs "How to make more $$" when there is TCC. Who needs "10 ways to curb procrastination" when there is TCC. Who needs "Finding your inner peace" when there is TCC. Haha.. Totally amazing and the irony is: I din know what I could get when I signed up for TCC. Talk about accidentals.
Anyway, yesterday was hectic. Went to AMK to do surveys. Sound easy right? BULL! The people there are sooooooooo "FRIENDLY". People will walk towards you and all of a sudden, they will pick up their handphone and talk. Shortly (5 steps from you) their friend hanged. Amazing. And I was a victim of "Talk to my hands". And u know what, I was rejected three times in a row. Gosh - what an experience that I wun never get in love life (I hope) Oh oh.. the best one is this, after a while, I realise that no one come to me within 300 metres radius. This is sooooooooooooo fun! Nevertheless, I did enough to make $10/hr. But it is tough job!!
Today would be an equally hectic day. What's new? It's the travelling that can kill me. First to Kembangan to meet HoD of Ngee Ann Pri, then to Suntec for interview and then Forum Mac for EV meeting till God knows what time. But the strange thing is this: All are part of my creation of things. *grins*
And as what Anakin's master told him: Young skywalker, your focus is your reality!
So people, what's your focus today?
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| Happy shalala, it's so nice to be happy! |
| 05.24.05 (7:45 am) [edit] |
Today has been a really GRRREEEEEEEEAAAAT day!!!
1. Woke up on time at 8.30am to meet Adrian and Yiling
2. Fruitful business meeting
3. Ate super nice Lor Mee (with lotsa vinegar) while watching 2 episodes of Friends (with my mum!)
4. Went for Microsoft/IDA Scholarship 2nd interview - one of the two finalists. Tough luck but I met up with Andy, MD of Microsoft. Big shot la! Haha... *cross fingers* The only regret I have is to ask him "How's it like to be the MD of Microsoft?"
5. Met up with Buddy!!! And Hung!!! And we went out together!!!!!!!!! First to find Emma @ her shop and she is so cooooool. Then me, Hung and Emma headed to Bras Brasah for dinner and we talk talk talk... Then to Mac for ice-cream and we talk somemore until around 6.40pm before they head for Star Wars.
6. Spend some me-time and it was reallly awesome. First did some work at Mac. Then went for a walk at Raffles City. I realize that it has been quite a while since I spend time alone. Walking along the stores, I find a familiar sense of inner peace. Happy to be by myself. Shopped with no intent. Just walking around till my friend called.
7. And then in the cute red van we went! After getting lost in town for a while, we finally found ourselves at Kaki Limar. A cafe at Arab Street opened by this Malay celebrity. The food is totally delicious. Yummy! We ordered Malay delicacies plus the usual drinks. It has been so long since I chilled outside. And we talk talk talk. Haha...
8. When I got home, I found a new armchair in my room. Those big big kind with arm rests and I can just lean all the way. So awesome!!! I wonder who bought this for me? My dad maybe. He finally notice that my old pathetic chair has only one screw left. Keke...
Yes, my day has been great. My days have been fulfilling ever since I took that leap of courage. Some of my friends who I cared for has also took a leap of courage and took on the TCC program. And I am so freaking happy for them coz they are so excited about their lives now. *grins* Tat's the way it should have always been. Many people are alive. But are they living??? Coz being alive is easy! All u got to do is breathe. But living your life is a different ball game today - you got to have BALLS and COURAGE! Lalalala...
I am soooooo happy now... and I can be for the rest of my life. But one thing I have to caution myself. Slow down dude. Slow down... Stop and breathe the flowers... Don't let things run past you...
Roger! Out! Zzzz...
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| A day to remember... |
| 05.16.05 (12:06 pm) [edit] |
4.11 am... I should be showering or sleeping by now. But I can't. Sitting in front of my computer, I am so present to the life I have before me. My life has always been a series of accidents. Many things happen to me by chance. The people I meet. The things I do. Who I am before taking up THE COURAGE TO CREATE. And yet it was becoz of an accidental chance that I met Adrian. He introduced me to the work and I make the leap BY CHANCE as well... It has been 8 months since I took up the program and commit myself to the work. Things have changed for me dramatically. For one, I stop running my life by chance. Every thing I do become an intention of the mind and an action of the body. And believe me, words cannot describe it all.
Last week when the impossibilty was placed before us, I saw magic taking place. It's like putting metal through fire. We became tougher as a wave. We began to work as a team. We became one! I could not ask for a better team like this. Everything else pales.... Sometimes I ask myself why do I put myself in BLP or do the work in ECI coz it is just too tough. Frens ask me what I have been up to and I find it soo hard to explain what I experienced. I see them bumming around. I want that too.. But somehow deep down inside, I know my calling. I know what needed to be done. And the best thing is this: I am never alone. I have 13 warriors fighting side by side with me. Never giving up on each other... (tears)
I am feeling a tinge of sadness now coz I will be leaving in a month's time. I can't bear to go. I can't bear to leave my wave. It's more fun to do this together... The only thing that is going to keep me bonded is our stand and honor code. To continue fighting... And it really all began with a question posed to me 4 mths back:
Which path do you want to take: The common path or the greater path that few people has attempted to walk?
I choose the latter. And I never look back.
Today I realise something.
The path I have chosen has no end...
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| It's time for action, pussies! |
| 04.23.05 (9:11 pm) [edit] |
What have I been up to?
Hanging out with my best-est fren, Jac. Know her for like donkey years. Eee-haw! Eee-haw!
And yes, I have been mugging too. Mugger in Progress!
Many of my friends are going to grad this sem. And Jac brought up something. Think I am going to grad. with 2 bachelors in 2007. Bachelor of Computing & Bachelor! Goodness. But I kinda like it. All the freedom that comes along with it. And I heard that bachelors are allowed to date many many gals. And with the coming new age, I can date boys too. Haha. What a year for me!
As I was clearing my pic folders, I found this picture!!! It was this fateful day that I commit myself to being part of BLP Wave 4! Warriors of Light! Awesome~~~
Made a few calls today to check on some friends. Felt sad and fustrated at the same time...
I realise that many people love to delude themselves into non-reality. Many of them have wonderful dreams that require them to take the first step out of their comfort zone. These dreams have been in existence for years and they have sat in their shithole hoping (while some praying) for these dreams to land on their laps.
And as years go, instead of realizing that they have wasted their time. They come up with convincing reasons to explain their inactions. Oh, probably it is just not meant to be. God has not given me the sign yet. Perhaps it is for the best, to protect me from getting hurt. Fuck you people! Bunch of pussies!
Haven't you realise that it is all these crap that got you where you are. And instead of pulling yourself out of the shitload, you create more shit to stay in it. What if today is the last day of your life? Are you going to just skid past the finishing line and die? The sun will rise and set everyday but in between the sunrise and sunset are possibilities. Possibilties for us to create. Tough yes. But it is worth every drop of sweat. At the end of the day, even if you failed, at least you tried. But then again, this is nothing new. But who really have eyes to see and ears to hear. I wonder...
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| Have you ever love youself? |
| 04.19.05 (6:35 am) [edit] |
Know something? We always declare our love for the people around us, our parents, friends and most importantly our girfriends and boyfriends. But how many times do we declare love for ourselves? And the interesting qn I would like to ask all is "How do you love others if you don't love yourself?"
Many people in this world DO NOT love themselves well enough. They wait for people to make them complete, either through people's approval or acceptance. And they will do all that they can to be recognised and be accepted. And everything that they do become a compensation. I used to be like that too. Doing so many things to convince myself that I am useful in this world. That I am loved and accepted. And the love I seek will never be enough coz I am but an empty shell...
If people have love themselves truly, would they compromise their greatness?
If people have love themselves truly, would they undermine their strengths and belittle themselves?
If people have love themselves truly, do they need to constantly seek material things to make them whole?
I realise that love songs are always abt declaration of love for others. I am gonna make a difference this time and dedicate this love song for myself. Eric, I love you!
:wink:
[i]Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
I want to vanish inside your kiss
Every day i'm loving you more than this
Listen to my heart, can you hear it sings
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change, winter to spring
But I love you until the end of time
Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day
Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
It all revolves around you
And there's no mountain too high
No river too wide
Sing out this song I'll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather
And stars may collide
But I love you until the end of time
Oh, come what may, come what may
I will love you, I will love you
Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place[/i]
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| You are your own judge - can you pass yourself? |
| 04.16.05 (9:52 am) [edit] |
This has been a question that been lurking in my head for quite a while. But was triggered again during assisting in TCC this morning. Being the usual me, my addiction is one of approval. To do things just to make others see me in the different light or to do it because "He says so..." and usually that "He" is an authoritative figure. I realise for myself that this happens time after time. At times even for BLP. But frankly, do people care if you produce results? Why will they bother if you fly? But I get that there a bunch of people who are committed to my evolution. Who are committed to my possibilities. Question is "WHAT AM I COMMITTED TO?"
Am I committed to this "approval" addiction that runs me all the time. Even though I know the source of it, but many times (especially when I am not conscious) it comes back to run me. In today's TCC, I found it a double edge sword. In a totally new environment, I seek to find approval and recognition from the people around me and I will do whatever it takes to be noticed. Mostly through exam results or by doing the homework people gave me. BLP included. And then when u start to gain some recognition, your work is done and u slack. Happens a lot in NUS esp in my second and third yr. During my first yr, I worked freaking hard and got a name for myself. Best in Presentation. Best in business selling. Excellent CAP etc. And then I start slacking.. and my CAP start dropping coz I find no reason to do any work. I wasn't committed to performing. I was just committed to seeking approval and I got it. And I stop working...
Hehe, was realli happi to get this realization. And yes, this also marks a poignant step in my evolution. So question remains, what am I committed to? I realise that I am ultimately my own judge and I can fool the world but no myself. What I would like to re-establish and re-declare is my commitment to my studies and relationships with people. I AM COMMITTED TO PRODUCING MY VERY BEST. I AM NOT COMMITTED TO THE SHIT AND EXCUSES I GAVE MYSELF TO UNDERMINE MY BIGGER SELF. And ladies and gentleman, that is who I am. And FYI, I dun need your approval. :wink:
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| The body needs a break... |
| 04.14.05 (8:33 am) [edit] |
Yes you hear me right. This shell of mine is protesting. Showing signs of resistance to work and doesn't react well to stress anymore. Guess the days of busy bee is over yeah. Well it is about time I start shedding this tiresome image of mine and recreate a new mask for myself. Well isn't this world a world of masquerade anyway? Keke.
The dean of U-Penn came to visit us today. And he got me excited. Haha. I will get to see all four seasons. Play with snow. Ski. Surf. Tour. Hike. Eat. Yes thats the most important of all. Rest assured that I will take loads of pics and this time to properly keep them so I can still show my grandson in the late future.
Realli looking forward to this trip. One, I get to live out of my comfort zone and experience life. Two, away from Singapore - a boring place to me. Three, I consider this a major vacation that I am going to take before I graduate. What a way to end my studies yeah. But frankly life is more than work and studies. I got that. And to me, these pursuits are not that important anymore. Without them, one can still enjoy life and experience heaven on earth. A lil. more money only makes you higher that's all. In essence there is no difference.
Anyway, I have made plans for the holz. What's new. I plan to BUM around for one whole week. Yes. Have not done that b4. It is sure gonna bore me but let's try and see how it go. Oh and as usual, before any long examinations (mine will last for onli one day, haha) I plan to go for a 2-3 days getaway. Prob to Thailand or Bintan, depending on package. Boy, I am so looking forward to it. Woohoo....
Dear Christians, Catholics, Buddhists, Taoists etc ..... no need to wait till death to go to heaven. It is here on Earth, in the wild flowers, in the sunrise, in the people... if only you have eyes to see. And to Santanists, have HELL-uva time! Pun intended!
Greeted by the sun @ my window
Heaven before your eyes
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| Waiting - what's the point? |
| 04.10.05 (8:38 am) [edit] |
So much for my beauty sleep. I told myself that I am gonna sleep from 10 to 8 everyday so that I wun look like a panda again but... :cry: Whatever!
Took me quite a while to find this song. Do people wait becoz they need to convince themselves there is still something worth waiting for? Or they refuse to acknolwedge that the relationship has ended and it is time to move on.
金色的舞鞋伴着音 baby
你的眼睛是一弯深 的湖水
忽明 忽灰 掩藏着不可思议的
让我眩晕像在悬崖
谁知一睁眼就不见
Waiting for you i'm waiting for you Waiting for you kiss me at the night
为何你cinderella 留给我一望无际的 念
Waiting for you i'm waiting for you Waiting for you come here to my dream
牵着你不断旋转 一直到黑发成了银
Waiting for you waiting for you 直到永远
It's really pointless. Why do I even care...
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